How dare we speak of the laws of chance? Is not chance the antithesis of all law?
It’s funny. I took a look at the blog today for the first time in a long time, and noticed that James had made an entry: “This is James and this a test, and so it is.”
It made me laugh and then I realized that is exactly what seems to be going on with me these days. I seem to be engaged in a series of test to see just how firm I am in my commitment to my beliefs.
The past few months have been electric; much is happening. I have a new business that really took off after the first of the year. I have been consulting with an Education and Public Outreach Organization that is a part of NASA, I begin an 8 week series of story development trainings for members of the NASA EPO community tomorrow and I have entered a partnership with another company, developing an internet based business that has been extremely exciting and affirming. All of this has kept me busy doing what it is I love to do.
And, here’s what I’ve been noticing: I still seem to want to gauge how successful I’m being based on how it appears to be going outside of me. In particular as it relates to this internet project. My partners and I have been conceptualizing and developing this idea for about 6 months now. WE…work wonderfully together. It really is the best business relationship I’ve ever been in. We bring different yet overlapping skill sets….we listen to each other…we challenge each other. We a moving to launch this thing in a pre-launch/crowdfunding manner very soon. I continue to hold that this is the most exciting, brilliant and innovative idea I have ever had the opportunity to work on…..and….
I find myself…at times…doubting the fact that it will work. That anyone will care. That it will make money.
When I’m clear and authentic in the belief that this is really something unique and special…I actually can imagine riches flowing toward me….and then….something will happen….I read something about something that challenges any of our basic assumptions, we have a stumbling block we a need to overcome in order to get this up and running, we realize that we need to change some aspect of the business plan….and suddenly it goes from being a sure-fire idea that everyone will want to…meh.
Am I really that changeable?
Do I have some inherent lack of faith?
I don’t get it. Really.
I’m much better at staying in the moment, and these “doubts” don’t last long….but, OMG…the energy it takes sometimes to take them on and root them out.
What has been helping me…and I want to share with all of you, is something I keep bringing back into my mind when I find myself on in one of these moments of doubt.
“Anything is possible…but EVERYTHING is probable. 100%.” This idea came to me in the last CPR, but it is paying off in spades now. It keeps bringing me back to the knowing that I need to understand that; that which exist is in presence, not because it is possible…but someone…at some point…somewhere….held the belief that what they were working toward was NOT possible….but, was absolutely PROBABLE. Whenever I find my belief for my better-self under attack by my mind…I stop. Stand in the moment…and remember. I remember what James has said any number of times…Life is perfect…all the time…no matter what. EVEN if I…for a brief moment forget. I only have to be in the moment and re-member, and the Truth comes back to me.
The TRUTH is…I have no idea how this project will work out. That’s not my job. My job is to stand in the knowing of what I want to do, and allow the Universe to reveal the “how” to me. No matter how this turns out (and we’ll probably get a good idea very soon), it’s going to be a success. Simply, because it didn’t exist before. I have to keep remembering I am the point through which the Universe is bringing this project into existence. The only way I can hinder it’s fullest realization…is by allowing any of my thoughts of “disblief” to take root.
It’s like my mind is going…”Really? Really? Rrrrrrrealy….?”
My only response can be….Really. Absolutely, with 100% Probability.
I know with the absolute clarity of spiritual Truth and Logic what it is I want, and I surrender to the perfect revelation of the perfect How.
Thank you, James.